The thief left it behind: the moon at my window - Ryokan

Sunday, October 12, 2008

voicing tantalizing wandering

I just posted this, my 1st blog in Metta's lovely new site!
You are invited to visit and join if you find it interesting:
The United Buddhist Networks

While I was thinking about what to write,
how to say what I want to say
... finding what I want to say...
I was found this quotation which speaks to me so well:

"Of the many earnest, and how earnest, people we may observe reading, attending lectures, studying and practicing disciplines, devoting their energies to the attainment of a liberation which is by definition unattainable, how many are not striving via the ego-concept which is itself the only barrier between what they think they are and that which they wish to become but always have been and always will be?' - Why Lazurus Laughed by Wei Wu

Yesterday in this site, I started, what I hoped would become a conversation, on Emptiness.

I love this subject so much!
People always respond from a knowing place,
as do I when others raise a subject...

...and these responses are always helpful.
...but only to a degree.
As is the question itself.

I sense that as long as we are not enlightened
we will inevitably fluctuate between the relative realm and mindfulness

As a person on the path my 'goal' is enlightenment.
...I know having a goal
is the very thing/concept between me and enlightenment...

The thing is

... until we have 'arrived' (become enlightened/awakened)
there will be a goal
...for at least part of the time

and you know what?
I find this a sad thing...

Which does not mean I do not also endlessly celebrate.
I do.
In each moment that I bring my awareness to the moment.

But ...there is always the underlying yearning...
this is the very thing I guess which propels me on
keeps me taking the next step,
and the next, on the path.

Moments of awareness

stillness in the mind


yet... my awareness is so limited...

and so I am propelled ...
to take the next step...

and the next...

I teach art and yoga. Sometimes people take up these as a hobby
and squeeze into the hour they can manage between the important things in their lives.
After one or two classes they reach the moment when they feel daunted,
realizing they are actually on the foothills of a mountain they need to climb.

I attended a talk by Tenzin Palmo a while back.
She spoke eloquently about how life brings us challenges and by taking these challenges on
we become fit and strengthened spiritually
- in the same way our body becomes fit and strong from physical exercise.

There is a path to walk

the journey feels arduous at times


it is here
... this thing we search for
is here


Art and Poetry said...

This is a very interesting post! the words underlying yearning is true. I feel that everyone creates their own truth here and now. To understand this we need to understand quantum mechanics.

HummingBird said...

..and your comment is interesting
thank you!